“After my university final exams in 1988 I visited my brother, Fr. Francis, who was a catechist in remote Turkana, Kenya. It was a self gift for completing my studies and securing a job with Arthur Andersen, a Big-6 accounting firm. I spent 9 months in Turkana and Nairobi where I saw the medical mission work by the Missionary Community of St. Paul the Apostle.The impressions and discoveries were overwhelming, leaving me in awe and amazement, and also restless.
I returned to Singapore and worked for 6 years as a Tax Accountant. Life was filled with great excitement and non-stop activities. I travelled extensively, often off the beaten track. Despite the ostensible success, it became increasingly hard to ignore the growing restlessness inside. I was certain my life was yet to be lived fully so I did a “heroic” thing. I left my job, sold my car to the Archdiocese of Singapore, donated my goods to the Good Shepherd Sisters, and returned to Kenya to answer the call within my heart.
In time, God was to reveal the shocking truth that I was neither a hero nor a saviour. I was merely finding myself and in the process I was the one being helped, sometimes even a burden on the people I was supposed to help. God is an architect who draws straight with extremely crooked lines. I was going round in circles, thinking my plans were His plans until I reached a desert; a barrenness where I was insignificant. That period “in the wilderness” was the turning point. The deep emptying of self made me realise God was calling me to follow His drawing plans instead, as they unfold, section by section. I was to embark on that journey by taking a leap of faith, into the unknown, with no strings attached.
Over the years, I have learnt to walk with the faith of a blind man who needs to be led. I have also learnt that I “see” better when I complement my faith with humility, gratitude, joy, patience, perseverance, acceptance, hope and compassion. God remains faithful, and His light continues to shine in the darkness, and the darkness can never overcome it."